ummm, yeah

For those of you who had to deal with me over the past weekend, and wondered what the hell was wrong with me, here's a bit of an explanation. I go through bouts of depression, they don't happen frequently, and are usually gone within a few days, so since I really don't like taking meds, I don't really treat them. They used to be much worse when I was younger, and I chalk it up to hormonal fluctuations and such. Since the hormones are a bit more regulated with birth control, they are less frequent and less severe, which is a good thing. I was whacked out back then. So anyway, this one was a bit different , for some reason I was completely paranoid and was thinking things I shouldn't have, and ended up doing things I shouldn't have. So, in turn, hubby and I had a major rift that we are working on. The rift was completely due to me and the paranoia that was festering in my brain. So, for any of my readers, do I have any, I'm going to be a bit less around, and a lot less in the flirtation department on Murmurs. Because my husband and marriage really are more important to me than Murmurs, it's a necessary change, so I might appear a lot less fun to some folk. I'm just warning you all. The depression phase still hasn't left completely, neither has the paranoia, but it is starting to fade, so it will be gone eventually. I don't really want people worrying about me, since this is stuff I have been dealing with my whole life, and I am used to dealing with it. I'm just not sure how many of you have ever seen it in action, and I know I was pretty curt and pissy this past weekend. I'm sure my few friends thought I was pretty fucked up, but now you know, so you know. You know?